Really!? Seriously?!
I-----------------V------------------F!!! UGH!
So today was the appointment I'd been looking forward to and dreading at the same time. Hmmmmmm to say I'm over-whelmed would be an understatement. I mean really! My doc explained everything in detail with pictures, graphs the whole nine yards but damn! I left with a "what the hell" am I doing bubble in my head. It's just so much! So much emotionally, mentally, physically and FINANCIALLY! I mean I know people pay upwards from 15,000-25,000 for an IVF and my little 10,000 is not much but it kinda is! UGH!
We have to do all new tests; blood test, SA, Pap-
Protocol is as follows:
Birth control
Trial Transfer
Lupron
Baseline Sonogram
Gonal F and Menopur
Sono
Sono
Sono
Sono
Sono
HCG shot
Egg retrieval + mix with sperm for 5 days
Egg Transfer
Blood test to see if PG
Oh did I forget to mention pay 10,000 first! SMH!
The process is like 6 weeks long and I think I see my doc like 20 times during that period! WTH!
I'm just having a dramatic moment right now I guess but geez I just want to have a baby naturally not pay to get pregnant! It pains me to know I may pay all this money and stress myself to death and it still is not 100% guaranteed! I just don't know if I'm strong enough for this.
I have to do this though and at least I'll know that I tried my best to start a family. I just pray for strength and sanity while I'm going through this. God will never put more on me than I can handle. Sigh~
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Hey sweetie! I know it's tough right now. Looks like a really long road ahead but hopefully it will end with a pregnancy! Wouldn't that just make it all worth it. I know part of what you have been through already and you are a strong woman. There are plenty of ladies who have not had the strength to do what you have already been through. Take it a day at a time and maybe it won't seem as overwhelming. I know it's easier said than done - especially since you are going beyond what I ever did, but you know you have us out here for support! Wishing you the best and tons of baby dust! I will keep you and your hubs in my prayers and hopefully God will agree on this timing and will give you a sweet little baby to love.
ReplyDeleteWell Monkay, all we can do is stay prayed up about it all and God will give You and Tommy your hearts desires. Believe and keep your Faith strong and nonmoving. I am here for ya'll always...Loves ya
ReplyDeleteThx Sherry- I really hope this works. I know taking it day by day is best but when I saw it mapped out on paper and the graphs, etc... I was like holy crap! It's just a lot to wrap my head around. I appreciate all the prayers my friend and pls know that you and your hubby are in mine :-)
ReplyDeleteThx Monk- That's what we plan to do. Loves ya!
ReplyDeleteHey love. I know it seems like a lot but you will get through it, you will remain strong, you have a wonderful husband who will be there with you 1million percent and God forbid it doesn't work (my prayers and thoughts are with you guys) you can either adopt a beautiful child that really needs your love, kind heart and spirit or you can try a surrogate. I know, I know, its not the same, nor will it ever be. But I know the love you have to give is tremendous!!
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