So today was the appointment I'd been looking forward to and dreading at the same time. Hmmmmmm to say I'm over-whelmed would be an understatement. I mean really! My doc explained everything in detail with pictures, graphs the whole nine yards but damn! I left with a "what the hell" am I doing bubble in my head. It's just so much! So much emotionally, mentally, physically and FINANCIALLY! I mean I know people pay upwards from 15,000-25,000 for an IVF and my little 10,000 is not much but it kinda is! UGH!
We have to do all new tests; blood test, SA, Pap-
Protocol is as follows:
Gonal F and Menopur
Egg retrieval + mix with sperm for 5 days
Blood test to see if PG
Oh did I forget to mention pay 10,000 first! SMH!
The process is like 6 weeks long and I think I see my doc like 20 times during that period! WTH!
I'm just having a dramatic moment right now I guess but geez I just want to have a baby naturally not pay to get pregnant! It pains me to know I may pay all this money and stress myself to death and it still is not 100% guaranteed! I just don't know if I'm strong enough for this.
I have to do this though and at least I'll know that I tried my best to start a family. I just pray for strength and sanity while I'm going through this. God will never put more on me than I can handle. Sigh~