January 9, 2015

Silly Selfies w/ Avery-Harper

No words could ever express how much I adore this child!
If I have one obsession, she's it!

January 8, 2015


I need your validation 
I need you to love me
I need you to need me and want me in your presence
I loved you before we met and once I held you it was solidified 
I've never been one to need other's admiration but I need yours
My fear is that you won't love me as much as I need you to 
That you won't love me in time 
I fear we will have a rough path like most mother/daughter relationships
I fear you will spend most of your time avoiding me, instead of loving me for me
I did that to my mother
Unfortunately I learned that life can be gone in an instant and there are no do-overs
I pray our relationship is smoother because our time may be shorter 
Shorter due to the fact that I started mothering you later 
I pray to God, that you, Avery-Harper will love me in real time because forever isn't promised my love-
I pray that you know I needed you just as much as I wanted you
You are the song of my soul and I just wish my voice was sweet enough to sing your glory-
You make my heartbeat out of my chest and my smile go beyond my face 
You are all the best parts of me
Grow old in good health my love and be happy
You don't have to be perfect 
You don't have to be rich
Just be a decent human being 
Understand the power of love and if you do nothing else for me, just do this-
Please love me better than I loved my mom.

January 2, 2015

Bitter....Better! 2014 I bid you adieu!

2014 has been quite the year! As I look back on it I can see I learned, endured and sacrificed a lot. However, it was not without great lessons and even greater blessings.

My miracle baby is turning two soon and it's been an amazing ride! I'm beyond blessed to be her mother and I thank God everyday for his favor. I celebrated my 7th year wedding anniversary with my near perfect husband. Together we are happy, healthy and in love.

I've also experienced some major loses this year in my personal life. I was not prepared for any of them but I count it all joy.

My FET failed so no baby #2 (at least not right now)
Family dynamics changed but made way for a clearer direction.
Major friendships are barely friendships at all anymore.
A few new business owner lessons were learned the hard way.

However everything happens for a reason and I trust in HIM.

2015 already looks bigger, better, brighter and more blessed. Here's to nothing but positivity ahead and to living in LOVE.

Holiday Horse Drawn Carriage Ride

We had this scheduled a couple of weeks before Christmas but the weather didn't cooperate. We actually ended up going a couple of days after Christmas with our friends and their 4 year old daughter. I was shocked that Avery-Harper was so into it! We will definitely try this again next year but before Christmas! Maybe it'll be a new tradition for us!

Our nugget!

The horses were named Salt and Pepper! Lol

Our neighbors and very good friends, The Martinez Family!

Christmas Day 2014

Spent with our second family whom we love dearly!

Christmas Morning 2014

It was quiet, beautiful and just us!

Christmas Eve 2014

My family came over, we opened gifts, played games and ate till we were sick! Good times!

2014 Holiday Card

Avery-Harper 21mos and Keyshawn 7