July 29, 2016

Yet another damn setback!!!

I'm so fucking annoyed----
I just am. I'm trying not to be but I'm human and this process is killing me emotional and I haven't even started.

So I went back to the doctor last Friday and things seemed on track. Went back today for my levels to be taken at my doctor's office and the results came back at a 6!!! I need to be at an 8 so nope I won't be starting tomorrow. So now I'm suppose to go back Monday and he's certain the levels will be up. If so, I'll be due to start the ganirelix on Tuesday. I'm so over this. I just feel like I want to quit sometimes ๐Ÿ˜ž

July 20, 2016

Protocol Update

My doctor appointment went well today-
My follicles were much better this week after taking the Femara 2x a day for 5 days-
Im going back on Friday to check the follicle size again. If they are good I'll do the HCG trigger shot on Saturday.

I'll then go back to the doctor on next Thursday to check my progesterone levels. If it is good this time I will finally start my ganirelix. The following week around Aug 7th or 8th I should start my Stims.

Remaining optimistic and trusting in the process ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿพ

July 18, 2016

Wondering what this week will bring....

Still waiting-
Doctor's appointment on Wednesday and I'm very anxious to see what's going on with my follicles and how the Femara worked out this time. I can't believe I've had such a long delay but anything worth having is definitely worth the wait. I'm so hoping I'll be able to give Avery-Harper a sibling or two. My heart is set on B/G twins or one girl. Let's see what happens๐Ÿ˜

July 13, 2016

More Tears and More Not-So-Great News....

What a frustrating day. Thank God my husband was there to get some clarity for me because I was too overwhelmed.

So today the doctor said things weren't looking great with my ovaries and he couldn't see any follicles on the right side. The numbers stated they were there but he just couldn't see them. He saw I was frustrated and explained why it's best to wait to try one more thug before proceeding-

My husband chimed in with his concerns and expressed that more explanation needed to be given as we are going into our third month with no progress.

The doctor explained that he really wanted my ovulation to work harder to give us the best chances. He wanted to get some extra estrogen priming in me because he believes that works best. After a few tears I pulled myself together because I truly did understand I'm just tired of the wait.

So he prescribed me Femara again but this time 5mg total a day instead of 2.5. I'll take the pills 2x for five days then I'll go back to the doctor on wednesday for another sonogram. We will then do a trigger shot for ovulation and once my menses starts again I'll start Stims.

I guess all and all I just need to be patient and trust my doctor because he's a great doctor.

So here we go again for the third time and hopefully everything will work out-

This time my Femara was $94.99 for 10 tablets-
I wasn't charged for a doctor visit-
I will have to buy another trigger shot though Bc I'll be using the one I bought during the ovulation period-

Lord please keep me optimistic ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ

Going back to the doctor today๐Ÿ™„

So this will be my THIRD attempt at starting this IVF protocol! I have no idea what the doctor will say today.

First cycle my ovulation number never reached 8 (only 6)
Second cycle they tried Femara and my number was less than 1
I'm very curious to see what he suggests now-

Some women on my IVF support board were asking why he just didn't give me the trigger shot to help my ovulation. I will definitely be asking that today.

I have all the meds at my home and my IVF fee has been paid so I'm ready to go! I should have already had my transfer by now and I'd actually probably be in my 2ww or I'd just be finding out if I'm pregnant. Prayers for good news and to be able to move forward.

July 2, 2016

Granny in heaven says twins!

My doctor's office called today and basically said I need to wait for my menses again then come into the office and we'll devise a plan. This will be my third cycle since trying to start this IVF protocol.
I'm beyond frustrated but then as I'm watching tv my daughter comes downstairs very excited to tell me that we are going to have TWO BABIES! A boy and a girl! She said her granny in heaven told her so.

So maybe I just need to relax and follow the process Bc my mom maybe caring for my twins in heaven as we speak. Positive thinking.

I love you mom๐Ÿ’•

July 1, 2016

Yet another setback

Just received the call from my nurse and my numbers are even worse than last time!!!
I'm so frustrated. I'm crying and I'm just tired like seriously what is the deal! Last time I was at a 6 and then I had to retest because I needed to be at an 8. So I waited a few more days and retested but my number went down to a 5.

That's when the doctor said I didn't ovulate and I had to wait to next cycle and use femara to help me ovulate. Well I used Femara this cycle and my number was LESS THAN ONE!!!! I mean seriously like I can't even wrap my head around it. Now I have to wait for my doctor to call me tomorrow so we can try something else. God I'm so tired of waiting already.  So many layers to this journey and I'm already tired and we've barely started.