(Sigh)......I'm just feeling some kind of way. I'm still shocked and sad about yesterday's news. It's still so surreal that everything just stopped so abruptly. I of course knew of the risks but I didn't even get a chance to try. I didn't get to see if my body would miraculously welcome our embryo and this beautiful baby would start to grow just like our Avery-Harper. It's so hard to dead a dream that you already started living. I'm hoping to be in better spirits soon because this is a low low point in my life right now.
I can say this though, my daughter has brighten my outlook majorly and her existence alone helps me cope. Avery-Harper came home last night from her godmother's and gave me lots of love, hugs and kisses. She must have known I needed it. Plus I could tell she really missed me and that made me feel great. I was hoping I'd get out today and try to feel normal but I think I'll try maybe tomorrow. I'm just not feeling like myself yet.
Praying for peace and healing.