DIY season is in full swing!!!

I've been heavy on my DIY grind for Avery-Harper's new big girl room! The lighting in her room has been changed to an old chandelier that I upcycled. It's super cute, old and solid with all the original crystals except for three.  I found it at a warehouse for old home fixtures and it was originally marked for $125!! It ended up costing me under $45, which is great for a crystal chandelier. I cleaned it, washed all the crystals and painted it a bright vibrant teal! It's the perfect size for a little girl's room and adds a little bit of glamour for my sassy little nugget!

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Sometimes you just have to LET GO AND LET GOD...

So once again my nephew is no longer living with us. This time it's final-
It's just too much drama and with all the moving parts of a combined THREE different household structures, it's just time for me to bow out.

I'll always love my nephew more like a parent than an aunt but what can you expect after 8 years of thinking of him as my own.  With that being said I'm moving on and establishing my new role as "just auntie" instead of "auntie-mom"!  It was a HARDDDDDD decision but I believe it's time to cut the safety net and let his parents figure it out.  Hopefully the seeds we've planted will stay with him a life-time.  He'll always be auntie's baby but as of February 2, 2015, auntie-mom has left the building.

Family or Foe

Sometimes you have to make very hard decisions in life in order to break a cycle. That cycle for me was broken today. People will take advantage of you and hold you to expectations that they don't hold themselves too! Why, because you allow it. Well the safety net has been cut, I'm moving on- #lessonlearned

Silly Selfies w/ Avery-Harper

No words could ever express how much I adore this child!

If I have one obsession, she's it!

Needy

I need your validation 

I need you to love me

I need you to need me and want me in your presence

I loved you before we met and once I held you it was solidified 

I've never been one to need other's admiration but I need yours

My fear is that you won't love me as much as I need you to 

That you won't love me in time 

I fear we will have a rough path like most mother/daughter relationships

I fear you will spend most of your time avoiding me, instead of loving me for me

I did that to my mother

Unfortunately I learned that life can be gone in an instant and there are no do-overs

I pray our relationship is smoother because our time may be shorter 

Shorter due to the fact that I started mothering you later 

I pray to God, that you, Avery-Harper will love me in real time because forever isn't promised my love-

I pray that you know I needed you just as much as I wanted you

You are the song of my soul and I just wish my voice was sweet enough to sing your glory-

You make my heartbeat out of my chest and my smile go beyond my face 

You are all the best parts of me

Grow old in good health my love and be happy

You don't have to be perfect 

You don't have to be rich

Just be a decent human being 

Understand the power of love and if you do nothing else for me, just do this-

Please love me better than I loved my mom.